Soundwaves

I am falling

falling into a dimension that is known only to the Darkness

a dimension where

life is upside down, chaotic, almost indestructibly b e a utiful

a dimension where

I am the sole inhabitant.

I can hear a dripping coming from the sink

the sound imitates the vacantness that is my mind

and I take the harpoon

and begin to slay my soul

one sickly plunge at a time.

Reuse, refill, repeat

the three R's that are an addicts alphabet

if the word coward made it into a human form -

I would gladly be the star.

Because cowardice is tied into addiction

I am afraid to be anyone different.

I am afraid to let them see my soul.

And the only words I am able to whisper,

are the ones that allow me to refuel.

How does any of this make me NOT a coward?

I am destruction, I am awe inspiring wonder

I am the devil's right hand man

that took you away from your Mother.

I am sadistic, I am raw, I am higher than the law

I am purpose, I am love

I will take your pain

and erase it.

But only until you come down.

When the clouds are at my feet

I feel invincible.

But when I am back on the ground

I feel nothing but replaceable.