Two.Seventy.Eight

counting these stars that lay across the night sky
got to a thousand, a little bit of this load off my mind
trying to even out the reasons to either keep to my pride

or admit to my wrongs and put the past behind
it's a vicious cycle we live in, grateful for good days given
when we can look at each other and just see the love,
instead of all the things we were trying to run from to begin with.

yet it's like resentment has an invisible hold around your beautiful neck
looking at me with that solemn shade of your blue eyes that accompanies being upset
and i'm taking steps back to prevent an outbreak,
another mistake that i have made a thousand times
because we both know i don't deal with conflict well
two ticking time bombs, al quada style baby, suicide missions
we're on the same two man team but we're from different divisions
i swallow a lot of my poisonous words
i know how much spewed venom can burn


i know this is worth it
because we fit just almost too perfect
i'm in love with your bright mind,
mixed with the dark parts just like mine
i'm in love with the spirit you are, at times, afraid to show
i'm beyond amazed at the amount we have grown
i've promised you the truly real parts of myself
that no one has taken the time to get to know before
this is reality but it gets mistaken for a dream
the intensity evolves into a different being
i don't want to ever let you go
for you have become all i really know.

have faith baby girl.